i really should be sleeping

i know i should be sleeping earlier, get my body clock more well adjusted, because i begin work on monday. but i couldnt get myself off the internet till now. i usually sleep at 4am and it’s already 3.45am. 15minutes earlier than usual. perhaps that’s what’s making me feel uneasy and keeping me up. or it could be the storm outside, with the strong wheezing winds and low rumbles. or also that it feels pretty lonely in bed tonight, cause it’s another one of the many frequent days my sister sleeps in the other room with her boyfriend.

i really should be sleeping, but when i close my eyes, i suddenly feel like there’s something incomplete about the day, and that i should be awake. my mind’s a blank though, when i open my eyes again.

i really should be sleeping.

i have a pretty wild imagination

i like putting my ear next to a freshly poured cup of beer.

it kind of sounds like a stream trickling through the woods.

in fact the thunder that constantly rumbles in the backdrop doesnt seem all to scary tonight. in fact, it seems pretty fitting.

perhaps i’m in a good mood today.

and i didn’t get to show it off enough D:

okay, i know there are more worst things in the world,

but i can’t help feeling upset that my very first manicure with 3d art *inserts sparkly eyes here* is chipping away :/

well, i guess part of me just wants my clean nails back too.

i love late nights early mornings fun days and long titles

and i love birthdays.

it doesn’t have to be mine, i simply love birthdays.

it gives reason to celebrate, an excuse to have fun, and it brings people i love together. if it’s a family birthday, i’d be all excited about the family dinner, and if it’s the birthday of a friend, i’d be all excited about spending an awesome afternoon with tasty lunch, or maybe an awesome night not knowing what to do next with a group of friends.

it’s the month of may though, possibly the most empty looking month on my calender.

no birthdays.

i would really like to find reason to get everyone together though, or just hang out with one or two. we don’t need to do anything. or we could try to do everything. but it would be fun.

i just want to say it was a good night.

i could murder the crit panel right now

fuck you riba.

now im in a damn bad mood and i can’t vent it anywhere.

i don’t like this feeling..
of waiting for the next day to happen, waiting for anything to happen.
i need more distractions and happy things to flood my mind.